It’s Good To Try Again

There is this book. A good, but piercing one. My sister read it and really liked it, so I ended up owning it. But upon reading it, I found stuff I didn’t like, that made me uncomfortable and question God’s love for me.

This book is Follow Me by David Platt.

He was talking about God hating sinners. I was one of those people who grew up thinking, “God hates the sin but loves the sinner.” But according to Psalm 5, it’s quite clear that God actually hates the person. But hear me out. There’s more.

When we sin, it’s a part of us, Platt says. So therefore because God is holy and hates sin, he hates us. But he also loves us.

It all goes to Jesus dying for us. He died so he could take away the wrath of God from us–the hate was transferred to him.

But then He also died because of his love for us.

The first time I read Follow Me, I didn’t catch the rest of the story, and I was kinda freaked out cause I couldn’t reconcile that with what I knew. It was scary!! I didn’t even finish the book.

But I decided to pick it up again and I’m glad I did! This makes so much more sense to me this time.

I was also reminded of the fact that our salvation is not about us. I realized I base my adoption into God’s family on a prayer I prayed. But that doesn’t nearly matter as much as trusting Jesus’ sacrifice for me. Believing that he is enough to cover my sins and make me right with God.

Anyway, that was a bit of thought-processing and I hope it encourages you somehow!!


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When the Rut is Busted

When you’re doing something…but you just keep doing the same thing over and over, and you’re never growing cause you don’t know you’re stuck…let me back up.

Recently, inspired by National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo), I decided to dance a story. How it looks practically is this: I chose a theme that showed change, then picked out songs that went with the theme’s storyline. I have 30 songs lined up, one per day of November. I dance to about one minute of these songs, then post them on my Instagram account.

They started out as mainly improv, so I wouldn’t have to spend a ton of time on each song.

Rut enters the scene here.

I, when under the pressure of dancing on the fly, tend to repeat the same moves. Or really similar ones. Also, my technique was sloppy due to the fact that I had so many things going on at once–listening to the music, the beat, pointing my toes, coming up with moves, etc, etc, etc.

I was talking with my dance teacher, Miss Judith, and she asked if she could give me advice. Definitely!

She proceeds to give me the bulldozer to bust my rut.

Use your abs–they’ll give you more balance. Make your dancing be more alive–reach past your fingers and toes. Punch those kicks.

Really good bulldozers are sometimes stuff you already know but are buried in mud, lost a ways back down the road.

Reminders of things forgotten.

Another piece of equipment, a new one: watch dancers on YouTube for inspiration. Fresh moves.

My dancing improved.

Then I felt the pressure to be perfect. I didn’t want to fail her advice, but I realized something: the goal of my nanodance is to grow, not to be perfect. And her advice saved me from being stunted. Stuck in a rut and reinforcing bad habits. Now I can fly. My rut can be flattened and I can run, take to flight. And soar.

“To learn the truth you must long to be teachable, or you can despise correction and remain ignorant.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭12:1‬ ‭TPT‬‬


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Profile of a Champion

Appearance doesn’t matter.
Brown hair, blonde.
Cape, muscles, mask.
Heroes.
Champions.

Real life, FaceTime.
Doesn’t matter.
This is one of mine:

Brown hair, dark eyes
Passion inside her
Teaches me, then
Asks what I think.

Man, I hate that question.

What will I do with what she’s saying?

But I digress.

Encouragement.
She says I’m a natural dancer,
Makes me cry.
It’s the spark
That lights my passion again.

Prays over me.
Makes me cry again.
She seems to just know
What I’m struggling with.
She brings it to our Father,
Intercedes for me.

Fights for me.
Pushes me on.

This is my champion.


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Addiction

Not in a bottle.
Not a liquid I pour down
My throat.
Not a pill I swallow
To numb myself.

Distraction.
It’s in the pages I flip.
The novels I fly through.
Im my screen
I use to occupy my thoughts.

I don’t want to think.
Afraid.
To fail.
To not follow what’s right.
To not succeed.
Be truly happy.
Satisfied and fulfilled.

A slave to my fear.
My addiction.
But I hear something.
Remember.
Aren’t I not a slave?
I am a free
Daughter
Of God.

The Fighter God.
My Champion.
My Perfect Father.

You are my addiction,
Jesus.
To be overwhelmed
with You–
Obsessed with You.
Always.


Check out For King and Country’s new song, “Burn the Ships“–here’s why: I had been thinking about writing on the subject of addiction, and then I saw this in the description of the Burn the Ships music video:

“Are there ships you need to burn in your life? What from your past has kept you silent and held you back from freedom? This album, ‘Burn the Ships’ was conceived when my wife, Courtney was battling addiction and all that comes along with it…. She one day chose to literally “flush the pills”, and never look back. Now we invite you to stand with us – leave the past behind, step into a new day, and ‘Burn the Ships’.”

And I was like, “I need to put this in my blog!”

It was cool how God correlated these two. 👊🏻

Watch here

Thank y’all for reading this blog post!! I appreciate seeing all the views, likes, and comments❤️


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Forgiveness

The glory of God is man fully alive. –Irenaeus

I heard this quote recently in the book “Waking the Dead”. Just today, I read it in another book, “The Other Side of Beauty” by Leah Darrow.

The part I was just reading was about when she came back to God after ten years of modeling; focusing on her outward appearance for being loved and valued, but filled with emptiness.

Something that stuck out to me was that if God would still love her and still accept her back, he still would me. And all of us. Every time.

She mentioned that it wasn’t God who got tired of forgiving us, but it was us who got tired of asking. (I think she might’ve been quoting someone)

Here’s to never growing tired of asking God’s forgiveness.


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5 Songs I Like Right Now (and Why)

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Amen by For King and Country

The sound and lyrics of this song are cool…the music video is also well done. For King and Country is one of my favorite bands due to their great, yet different, sound.

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Rescue by Lauren Daigle

I like this one mostly for the lyrics and the melody

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Joy by For King and Country

Again, cool music video, sound, lyrics.

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God is Still Here by JJ Heller

Nice lyrics and melody, and also JJ Heller has a cool voice.

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Meet Me On the Battlefield by Svrcina

Good memories are attached to this one…I danced to it. Which was really great. Also, the lyrics go along with the Christ-follower life. “Remember what we’re fighting for”–the vision gives us a focus and a path to pursue.


Thank you so much for reading this today! If you liked it, let me know by hitting “like”, or leave a comment below!

Talk to y’all next week!


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God Is Still Here

Meet Me On the Battlefield

 

Thoughts From “Waking the Dead” (Book by John Eldredge)

I discovered something recently. Something that goes against what I’ve thought, and I’m still figuring out:

My heart is good.

I thought that all of me was bad and Jesus just lived through me; all of me had died.

While that’s partially true, it’s not the whole truth. You see, my flesh, the old me, is bad and dead–it was crucified with my Savior. But he gave me a new heart.

Another idea I discovered–living from your heart. Not your emotions (a voice of the heart), but from the actual heart.

The Bible talks about the heart being central. In the command to love God, the heart is first. God says to guard our hearts, because that’s where life comes from. Etc.

The mind is not just thinking and the heart is not just feeling.

I think the heart thinks our deepest thoughts. Not sure about that yet, but it’s my theory for now. Jesus would say stuff like, “as they were thinking in their hearts”…

This is all a different perspective from what I believed, and it’s something I might just need to do some “thought-wrestling” with.

The present post is basically processing part of the book, Waking the Dead by John Eldredge. I haven’t read it all, but it’s really good so far. Hopefully I’ll post an actual coherent review/things I got out of it soon. 🙂

Vision

Sipping our Starbucks.
Talking.
Dance teacher;
Mentor, friend.

She tells me about vision.
And that
I need it.

Vision.
Get it.
Without it, people perish.
Write it out and make it plain.
God wants this for us.

Dream with Him.
Ask him to show you
The vision for your relationship–
With him.

Catch that vision.
Write it out
Fill your bedroom walls–
Those empty walls.
See your vision made plain.

And act.
It.
Out.

Inspiration

Hey all!

The other day I read this inspiring post over at The Rebelution, and I wanted to share it with y’all today.

I pray it inspires you as well!!

Check it out here

*Let me know what you think in the comment section below! Thank you all for reading, liking, following and commenting!!


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Prayer To the One Who Loves

My Lord Jesus Christ:

I want to forsake this life of “hoodies and sweatpants”–this life of ease and laziness and apathy, where I despise work and like to please self.

I want to change: love Jesus most; search for God with my whole heart; have a desire to follow after God; be selfless and unconditionally love people; delight in work (Proverbs 31); give everything I’ve got–100%;

Jesus, change me, and mold me into your likeness. Live through me, make this change last. In the name of Jesus, amen.


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